Even the toughest of us go through hard times. Ronda Rousey is a proof to this.

The New Yorker said she’s “the world’s best female fighter”. People described her as “a notoriously tough fighter.” Rolling Stone called her “MMA’s most unstoppable force.” Previous UFC champion Ronda Rousey’s success is undeniable. But when she unexpectedly lost her UFC 193 fight to Holly Holm last November, simultaneously losing her ‘undefeated’ title, those feelings of success clearly flew out the window.

Yesterday, on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, tears flooded Rousey’s eyes as she shared something that she’s never told anyone before. Describing the immediate aftermath of her championship loss, Rousey said, “I was sitting in the corner and was like, ‘What am I anymore if I’m not this?’ Literally sitting there thinking about killing myself. In that exact second, I’m like, ‘I’m nothing. What do I do anymore? No one gives a s— about me anymore without this.'”

The emotional interview was uploaded to YouTube and the video currently has over 669,255 views. But most of the video comments are actually quite cold. One user, Sandon Kamaunu, posted the statement: “You f—ing lost one fight, get over it. ”

Some people on YouTube were a bit more sympathetic, like user Josh McDonald who wrote, “I’m sure her first loss was hard to accept, especially coming from someone that is used to winning all the time,” helpfully hinting at the fact that Rousey obviously experienced a loss of identity.

The video goes on to reveal a smile spread across Rousey’s face as she explains what got her through that difficult moment: “I looked up and saw my man, Travis [Browne], was standing there,” she said. “I’m looking up at him and was just like, ‘I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive.'” Ellen DeGeneres praised Rousey for bravely exposing her vulnerable side and becoming an example of picking yourself up off the floor.

Watch the viral video below.